Saturday, October 29, 2011

Trying to Understand

Watched "The 5th Quarter" last weekend.  Cried my head off.  Not that it was a great movie. The story telling left something to be desired.  But loss, that I can relate to these days.  Great loss.  And Grief. A death like grief.  And grief inconsolable right now.  Not loss of life, but loss of relationship that was dear. And like death, I have no control over now.  Just trying to understand.  "Sorrow she comes a stealing..."  This poem was recited and looked it up and sharing now:

      To All Parents
"I'll lend you for a while a child of mine," He said.
"For you to love the while he lives and mourn for when he's dead.
It may be six or seven years, or twenty-two or three,
But will you, till I call him back, take care of him for me?
He'll bring his charms to gladden you, and should his stay be brief,
You'll have his lovely memories as solace for your grief."

"I cannot promise he will stay; since all from earth return,
But there are lessons taught down there I want this child to learn.
I've looked the wide world over in My search for teachers true
And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes I have chosen you.
Now will you give him all your love, nor think the labor vain,
Nor hate Me when I come to call to take him back again?"

"I fancied that I heard them say, "Dear Lord, Thy will be done!
For all the joy Thy child shall bring, the risk of grief we run.
We'll shelter him with tenderness, we'll love him while we may,
And for the happiness we've known, forever grateful stay;
But should the angels call for him much sooner than we've planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes and try to understand!"

-poem by Edgar Guest

---post by Queen Lucy

Monday, October 17, 2011


How do you measure your worth?  This question gets into my mind frequently in the course of trying to interact with other Christians.  Is your worth measured by "health, wealth, and prosperity"? That all seems to be going pretty great in your life?  Is that a measure of how important you are? How much you have accomplished?  How much people should admire you or respect you?

What about your house?  Do you have the Martha Stewart look down perfectly?  Can people come in and admire your perfection?  Is it your children and how well they behave or what they achieve?  Is that what we can measure worth by?  Status?  By which car we drive, which clothes we strut around in, which class of people include us in their circle? Or is it the number of friends you have?  People that you can invite to a family event?  Does that number reflect your worth?  Your importance? Your value?  Your life achievement?  

When I consider these things, I realize in comparison to so many Christians here in America, I am nothing.  If they were to give out passes for who could be worthwhile enough to save, I would not be on the list. Depending on who was doing the judging, I would fall short somehow.  And I think long and hard about this some days.

I fail at trying to lead a quiet life and mind my own business.  I fail at being a good steward of my time, gifts, and all that God has bestowed upon me.  I especially fail at daily having the mind of Christ, at laying my life down for the 10 most important people in my life, at managing my relationships to the glory of God.  Yet in Christ there is no condemnation.  In Christ, I am accepted in the Beloved.  In Christ I do not have to do one thing to be good enough, to measure up, to earn His love.  In Christ who is all in all.  His death, burial, and resurrection are my life.  Christ's sacrifice for me is the only measure of my worth.  And He says He has loved me with an everlasting love.  That when I come to Him, I am His beloved.  What else could possible be worth more in this world?  What else am I seriously going to measure my worth by?  Having Him is better than anything else on earth.  This is enough and I am forever thankful for His making me worth something.  Like the Psalmist said, having Him I desire nothing on earth. Amen

----posted by Queen Lucy